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Yst I was mightily depressed. :(

My 65daigou stuff will not arrive on time before I leave for London on Thursday and the NY office I interviewed with did not seem like it would be a good fit for me. 

ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ANGERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Lord why

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falloutwookie:

I feel like everyone on the internet needs to see this

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22 going on 23. 

FREAK.

If I don’t live my life the way I WANT IT TO BE RIGHT NOW, then time is going to fly faster than I can catch it. Self, wake up.

I want a boxful of memories that says “MY TWENTIES WERE AWESOME.” (Have yet to get that box, literally.)

Why I don’t regret travelling Japan+Korea with friends for 5 weeks last summer. People say “Omg, but that’s so long!” but I say “Not enough time, folks!” We sorta covered southern Japan (Tokyo, Nikko, Kyoto, Nara, Arashiyama, Fushimi-Inari, Hiroshima, Miyajima, Osaka) and then in Korea I pretty much bummed in Seoul+Yeosu because of my boyfriend’s work. (I was so bored out of my mind in Seoul, there’s little chance of me doing that again.) There’s so much more traveling to do and this is the time to do it. In your twenties. When you actually have time and you don’t have kids and bills to pay. Yet. 

I loved Cambodia and Vietnam last year; beautiful nations with great permanence and significance of history. I’ve also traveled (my beloved) Bangkok this January and will travel Europe, New York and Mexico this summer and hopefully, Koh Samui in the winter! I worked hard for these opportunities, make no mistake about that. When you want it, you’ve got to work for it - something I learnt early on in my twenties.

I haven’t yet travelled enough. It’d be ideal to start working so there’s some money that I can use to fulfill my desires of touring this world and making a difference in people’s lives. I’ve wanted to go on a long volunteering trip for a long time now, where I build houses or toilets or teach and learn a little bit more about this existence that is life. Even entertained thoughts of a year-long program in Japan, under the JET program or going straight to grad school in London. I wanted to work as a consultant, a banker, an actuary, an investment strategist, a lawyer - and I still want all these things. A day in my head is a day of never-ending ambition. There is no way I can rest on my laurels; that just isn’t who I am. 

There’s no point in denying who you fundamentally are. All there is to that is to learn and grow everyday until infinity.

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spiritualinspiration:

I believe that God has planted seeds of greatness on the inside of every one of us. We all have dreams and desires, things we want to accomplish; things we want to see changed. But so many times, life has a way of stealing our dreams. We go through disappointments, face adversity, things don’t turn out as we would like. Too often, people just end up settling for second best. But God doesn’t want us to settle for second best. He wants us to be determined, press on, and pursue the greatness that’s on the inside. We should never let “good enough” be good enough!

I want to encourage you today to stir yourself up and get your fire back. Start speaking victory over your future. If one dream has died, dream another dream. Put yourself in a positive, faith-filled environment. Get around people of excellence who live passionately. Fan the flame that is in you so you can move forward into all God has in store for you!

I needed to read this tonight. Because tonight, I feel the weight of financial burden again. I’ve received an incredible opportunity, one that will probably open doors and paths that I can never imagine. I feel that God is still sovereign in this but at the same time, I remind myself in my litle faith that God is still sovereign, even in this. My heart and my mind war with one another - with a heavy permanence of the knowledge of the cost and the luxuries otherwise. If I didn’t choose to go to Europe, for sure this opportunity would have been open to me. But I did choose to go. 

Tonight, I need a little prayer. For my burden to be set free.

I told my boyfriend tonight that I don’t want to feel this way ever again - that I long for the freedom from mammon and the frolic of self upon the endless plains of power: purchasing power. 

I also told myself to stop running away from writing the “unimportant” stuff and the desire to learn typography and graphic design. I’ve put it off almost 6 years now; I think its time to move forward in this.

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spiritualinspiration:

What we know and what we believe are not all that significant if they do not show up in the way we live our daily lives. Pure and simple, faith not lived out in everyday life is not faith; it is facade. Just as Jesus had told us to put into practice what we have learned from him, his brother James reminds us the same thing: when we learn the truth of God’s word, there is only one thing left for us to do: put it into practice!

Prayer…
Holy God, help me put into practice what I know is your will and your truth today. In the name of the Lord Jesus I pray. Amen.

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All the days of my life. 

THANK YOU GOD.